September 26, 2006
Some days...
Some days are just wrong on opening your eyes.
Today is one of those days.
Why? I don't know if I know the answer to that.
Mark didn't wake up this morning and didn't go with Shanti to help with the aid work. He's been mooching around looking lost and feeling guilty.
Spencer meanwhile seems a million miles away, well away from me.
Mark misses Shanti, does Spencer ever miss me?
That's another question I don't know the answer to.
That's not quite right is it?
Or maybe it just dosen't sit 'right' with me.
That's the truth, Martha, it doesn't, it really doesn't.
Shit!
I've got to go and swim or walk or move at least.
Shit!
Back later.
martha
some days
Friday, September 22, 2006Some days...
Some days are just wrong on opening your eyes.
Today is one of those days.
Why? I don't know if I know the answer to that.
Mark didn't wake up this morning and didn't go with Shanti to help with the aid work. He's been mooching around looking lost and feeling guilty.
Spencer meanwhile seems a million miles away, well away from me.
Mark misses Shanti, does Spencer ever miss me?
That's another question I don't know the answer to.
That's not quite right is it?
Or maybe it just dosen't sit 'right' with me.
That's the truth, Martha, it doesn't, it really doesn't.
Shit!
I've got to go and swim or walk or move at least.
Shit!
Back later.
martha
September 21, 2006
We fly to Phuket, then ferry to Phi Phi island, I love to lie on deck and watch the sky, which if you get sea sick is my top tip. The Tsunami devastated the main port on Phi Phi, tho' incredibly the wonderful survivors are not only 'still standing', so to speak, but also still smile and graciously live with a spirit we could all learn from.
Spence keeps his eye stuck to his viewfinder and looks at the world thro' a lens, as is his wont. He never takes a pic of me - ever. I do notice this fact but it seems vain or churlish or something to point it out. I don't have a photo of us together, which I'd kind of like, not to mention a portrait of me just for him - I'd pose for him in just about anyway he'd like, maybe mention that to him, see if he takes the bait?
Spencer had a call (not from work thankfully, that would really be sods law) but from an old friend who is also going to be here on Phi Phi at the same time as us - Plan is we meet up on the waterfront tonight, watch a fire throwing display and dance ourselves silly. Till then I'm going to catch a few rays and do absolutely nothing, BLISS.
What a night! Not only is Spencers pal, Alika absolutely drop dead gorgeous, but, can you believe it, we also bumped into our dear old Bankok buddies, Mark and Shanti, who were all loved up and on great form, all signs of moody Mark from Pat Pong gone. I adore that Shanti, she's my new best friend, I'm going to get her down to London for next Notting Hill Carnival. We all got pretty smashed and on top of that I slipped Shanti an E, so the fire show and dancing were not only wild but heavenly.
Back to earth, with not so much a bump but a resounding crash, this morning. My head has put on weight overnight, and is now far too heavy for my body, and my mouth tastes like the bottom of a parrots cage, or Spences socks, yuk. Pay back time!
Spences cure is always 'hair of the dog' and as I am fit for little else...
No sign of Alika today, shame, but Mark and Shanti join us on the beach, looking very pleased with themselves, that E looks like it did a fine job. We settle in for a few drinking games, and a lot of laughs. We met, or rather Shanti re-met a new aquaintance, whom I shall call mattress lady, she was bringing supplies to the island and is heavily involved with aid work, helping to rebuild after the devastation of the Tsunami. Shanti very keen to help out in any way she can and has arranged to hook up with her tomorrow, Mark dosen't quite as keen, not what he envisaged as part of the 'practise honeymoon' itinery, but I'm sure she'll persuade him to join her. Fantastic to have our own 'gang' so to speak, and game plan for later this evening is to head for this great music bar on the beach, with maybe a wee tumble with Spence before we go.
Now I wouldn't call it corrupting her, more encouraging her to let her hair down and try new things, its fun tho'. 'Strap it On', for those who haven't heard it is the most fantastic track to dance to and I would defy anyone not to want to get up off their bottoms and move. And thats kind of just how it happened, one minute I was on terra firma, the next, climbing onto the main bar, Shanti just had to join me and boy did she!
Things to do before you die : Dancing on a bar, I recommend hugely, and costs nowt!
The beautiful Alika joined us and when I admired his necklace, the most stunning piece of jewellery ever, he gave it to me. Spences face was a picture, but I pretended I didn't notice, was that mean? Mind you I don't remember him ever giving me a birthday present or even a card, come to think of it.
We played Truth or Dare and I only really mention it because Spence was asked if he'd ever marry me, he of course didn't really answer, was he still a bit jealous and paying me back...? (or ...?) The end of the night was fairly hazy in my mind but am pretty sure that I gave a surprise all of his own. Honestly I get more attention from virtual strangers than I do from my boyfriend half the time.
Night on Phi Phi
Spence packs the tiniest bag you've ever seen - I think its a matter of honour in some strange way. Meanwhile my toilet bag alone matches for size!We fly to Phuket, then ferry to Phi Phi island, I love to lie on deck and watch the sky, which if you get sea sick is my top tip. The Tsunami devastated the main port on Phi Phi, tho' incredibly the wonderful survivors are not only 'still standing', so to speak, but also still smile and graciously live with a spirit we could all learn from.
Spence keeps his eye stuck to his viewfinder and looks at the world thro' a lens, as is his wont. He never takes a pic of me - ever. I do notice this fact but it seems vain or churlish or something to point it out. I don't have a photo of us together, which I'd kind of like, not to mention a portrait of me just for him - I'd pose for him in just about anyway he'd like, maybe mention that to him, see if he takes the bait?
Spencer had a call (not from work thankfully, that would really be sods law) but from an old friend who is also going to be here on Phi Phi at the same time as us - Plan is we meet up on the waterfront tonight, watch a fire throwing display and dance ourselves silly. Till then I'm going to catch a few rays and do absolutely nothing, BLISS.
What a night! Not only is Spencers pal, Alika absolutely drop dead gorgeous, but, can you believe it, we also bumped into our dear old Bankok buddies, Mark and Shanti, who were all loved up and on great form, all signs of moody Mark from Pat Pong gone. I adore that Shanti, she's my new best friend, I'm going to get her down to London for next Notting Hill Carnival. We all got pretty smashed and on top of that I slipped Shanti an E, so the fire show and dancing were not only wild but heavenly.
Back to earth, with not so much a bump but a resounding crash, this morning. My head has put on weight overnight, and is now far too heavy for my body, and my mouth tastes like the bottom of a parrots cage, or Spences socks, yuk. Pay back time!
Spences cure is always 'hair of the dog' and as I am fit for little else...
No sign of Alika today, shame, but Mark and Shanti join us on the beach, looking very pleased with themselves, that E looks like it did a fine job. We settle in for a few drinking games, and a lot of laughs. We met, or rather Shanti re-met a new aquaintance, whom I shall call mattress lady, she was bringing supplies to the island and is heavily involved with aid work, helping to rebuild after the devastation of the Tsunami. Shanti very keen to help out in any way she can and has arranged to hook up with her tomorrow, Mark dosen't quite as keen, not what he envisaged as part of the 'practise honeymoon' itinery, but I'm sure she'll persuade him to join her. Fantastic to have our own 'gang' so to speak, and game plan for later this evening is to head for this great music bar on the beach, with maybe a wee tumble with Spence before we go.
Now I wouldn't call it corrupting her, more encouraging her to let her hair down and try new things, its fun tho'. 'Strap it On', for those who haven't heard it is the most fantastic track to dance to and I would defy anyone not to want to get up off their bottoms and move. And thats kind of just how it happened, one minute I was on terra firma, the next, climbing onto the main bar, Shanti just had to join me and boy did she!
Things to do before you die : Dancing on a bar, I recommend hugely, and costs nowt!
The beautiful Alika joined us and when I admired his necklace, the most stunning piece of jewellery ever, he gave it to me. Spences face was a picture, but I pretended I didn't notice, was that mean? Mind you I don't remember him ever giving me a birthday present or even a card, come to think of it.
We played Truth or Dare and I only really mention it because Spence was asked if he'd ever marry me, he of course didn't really answer, was he still a bit jealous and paying me back...? (or ...?) The end of the night was fairly hazy in my mind but am pretty sure that I gave a surprise all of his own. Honestly I get more attention from virtual strangers than I do from my boyfriend half the time.
